Ladies I am on the move!!!!

It is summer and all the guys will be out and I'm trying to catch me on one. Girls I'm trying to step my game up in all aspects. I have been reborn in these bast 3mths and I am a new Women, LADY, Sister, Female and more. I'm looking for new things, change and to better my life. I'm building from the bottom up this summer!!!

So it's 2010...can we do this again?

2010 IS THE START OF THE NEW DECADE i WAS BORN IN THE START OF THE BEST DECADE EVER...the 90s!!!! and now I'm in my 2nd yr of college in the start of hopefully another. In 2010 I hope to gain new thing and do new things in my life. So the motto of the year Is : "2010...where it all begins or where we do it all over again!!!"

Tall and Tan, Young and Handsome the boy from Ipanema goes walking.....

Tall and Tan, Young and Handsome the boy from Ipanema goes walking..... in to 2 of my classes this semster. I've been feeling him since last semester when we had 2 classes 2gether as well. The first day I noticed him I haven't stopped looking his way since. Yesterday we had a nice talk and he drove me to my dorm. I'm so scared to tell him that I like him because this boy from Ipanema is white and I'm black I'm scared of what's there. I don't know if he could like me or not...my friends tell me I will never know untill I ask...ugh I need 2 get over my shyness with boys and stop being scared. I got invited to hang with him 2...I may take him up on his offer!!!!


hAVE cLASS @ 9:25.....ttyl...~Smilez~

The Return

So it has been a while since I wrote here it goes my Freewrite.........

So I have return
Back to the place
That has ripped me into shreads
And taped me back together
So many times
Now that I have spent large amounts of times away
This place I label HOME
Has become a stranger to me
Everything about this place
Now ticks my nerves
Make my blood boil
When the ugliness that I hate shows its face
I can't take a stare at it face 2 face
I love the return to this original kingdom
Unreplicable but tried by many
The people I cross
I feel are stuck in the bubble of this metropolis
Well some but it halts things
I just wish everything
Would just flow
Be simple
At least for once

Hmmmmm............. it has been a while...yup yup.

Back at school now up in Rochester!!!! Yay since August. This summer was a laidback one where I just chilled had some me time and took care of the gramz. I lost my best friend since the 3rd grade.... but shit happens right. Shows how much value our relationship had. I saw some people I haven't in a long time and was able to have my last summer moment with the besties 'til next summer!!!! A few people I didn't see but will possibly visit them at their schools!!!


Now I'm in my 5th week of school my sophomore year is really here already a year done and 2 1/2 yrs of undergrad to go!!!! I'm really here and at occasion it still seem surreal but now that I have a major I'm starting to think of my future path on where I truly want to be.

My friends and I are bringing this sophomore year in hard with leadership roles on campus and many goals that will change this campus hopefully and positively. I love my classes they are the stepping stones for me.

Loving being at school but sort of missing my friends back at home 2!!!

Thought Product of a Virgo infused Rage

He watched the sun rise In her eyes
And watch the world die in mines
Only seeing the joyous side
He couldn’t bare the morbidness within that lies
Deep in the soul of this lost girl
Caught in The zone
He observed the glittery rays
Not caring of the pervious days
His mother telling him 2 remember that everything that glitters ain’t gold
That even if the core is ccld
Warmth can change its flow
She was riding the fence
From one life to another
Trying to convince that she was one and hiding the other
Who she wanted to be
And who she really is
She tried to be what she saw
But who she was- was different, original Straight RAW
But all they saw was her disguised
Labeled by her smile and sweetness
She wasn’t allowed to be sad
Cause no one could understand
He couldn’t see her potential
He only observed with his eyes but not with the mental
She didn’t seem to be worthy
Of his time or acknowledgement
The words she would text were ignored
Her attempts to makes moves were like knocking on deaf doors
Only he was allowed to interrogate
Without hesitation she answered every ques. not a second late
Hoping to bring him closer
But it was all pointless
Because from jump it was all over

By the time he realized
What was right before his eyes
That it was priceless
But now by him tarnish and tainted-demoralized
It was too late
Cause now in his arms laid their ending fate
Him staring into her eyes
Watching what he waited for all his life
Die
Her finally having someone see her for the first time
And the last time
Be cause her last breath
She had just taken was the end of her fall
But it was the best breath
That began and ended with a kiss from his lips
Like Romeo and Juliet

BLIND SENSES

I'm lookin in the mirror and everything seems fine to me, looks fine to me, sounds fine to me. BuT i'M CONSTANTLY hearing peopls say lately that something don't seem right with you Smilez or you sound down...like your mind is somewhere else.

I'm starting to worry that it might be true and I'm just oblivious.

I'm feelin lost and I don't want to lose myself...... getting into bad patterns. I think I'm in trouble that I may pick up a bad habit...so I replace a bad habit with

another bad habit.

I need the besties right about now...I'm feelin that way again.I'm not likin the feeling. Everything seem all over the place and I can't get a grip

UNTITLED

Overall I have seen the promise
Not the land
But I heard
The words so vivid
It’s clarity unexisting
But in this time for
Now everything is in a blur
Chaos is living
Breathing its very own version of oxygen
Its only in this monster chaos can be seen
But it hides anywhere
Mostly in positions of power

This promise
If only I can show you
The masterpiece those words had drawn in my brain
Full of clouds, swirls, smiles, sunshine, peace, unity,and love

This Promise

Could Reconstruct

~BY:SMILEZ!