I Just Happened 2 Stumble upon ...BEYONCE'S NEW VIDEO!!!!

~HALO AND DIVA~BEYONCE'S NEW VIDEO!!!!!

X-mas Eve,Birthdays, Discovering and No expectation of gifts!!!!

Today I talked to he and found out that he didn't like she. I told him how I felt but to me it didn't matter anymore. I realize there is so much more out there that HE and Simple Boy help me realize that. Friends are great to have and I love my friends they have become a major part of my life...like family.

Now on to the real business.....Today is Christmas Eve and my Grandma's 70th birthday!!!! I spending it with just her and me. I also found out my sister may have the baby sooner than expected!!! My third niece is on the way!!! In 2 wks I will be back @ skool whomp Whomp.

I just want to wish everyone a Happy Holiday!!!! Christmas 2008!!!

The Simple Boy Saved me

I just wanna Shake my head until it falls off. Yell until my voice box shatters or get expired from over usage. Run until I can't breath anymore or lay underwater as if I'm the only one in the world. Right now I just wanna get away. Today I had such a great day until I came home and talk to my friend. I hate this constant repetition of being hurt. I was hurt but I won't tell her that but I know she sort of knows.Happiness can never be constant and if it is you must be located in some other dimension than I. Cause I'm.........................................in a place where there is no shield that can stop you from hurting....a parade always get rained on.

This is how it goes:

"OMG you can't believe this Brooklyn"

I'm like what?

He...he asked me 2 do something 4 him

...(I'm NOT ALLOWED 2 TELL)

....Cause he never had really

If u saw my facial expression

She already know how I feel about he

I noticed him first in the 10th grade

Only I and no one else

And he notices her

He likes her though (WHOMP!WHOMP!)

He wants 2 do w/e it was that he said

But it's not her fault

Am I cursed?

Because this happens everytime

Then The Simple Boy AIMed me and brought a smile to my face....he erased all that was on my mind at the moment(even though I know it will return). I will be sad when he leaves. But he just sidetracked me into another place and now I'm glad. It's just crazy how emotions can switch over as quickly as they do for me. Simple Boy is so sweet and I think he could do so much with his life. But some paths are meant to be taken while others come later on. I just hope everything goes well for him.

SORRY I JUMBLE A LOT JUST HOW I AM...............

Blessing The Blog

Here is the first of hopefully many blogs 2 go because just like my journal I may write at first everyday and then only come around when something big and noteworthy happens to write.I'm not making promises but I will try.This will be the freewrite course on anything I want to write or post soooooooooooooooooo.... lets get it pumping.

~>Over the past week I've been watching alot of spoken word and poetry on YouTube and it make me miss so much how I use to be able to just throw poetry onto a paper with such ease. Now I have been experiencing writers block and it's the most hurtful thing how things that were once in the moment become just a memory. A reminiscing of the yearning I have to do something with what I say. I feel like I have gone back to my old self...scared to express how I feel and say whatever was own my mind. Let everyone else shine and feel like I'm not worthy enough that my star is actually a speck of dust. But I still feel that urge to write still with in me. A friend of mines once told me that it will all return in time and that I must be patient and that's what I've been doing.

I want to share something that came across my mind to write about today and it relates to a heart (Tell Me What You think):
Mother Nature snowed on my heart
Making my heart cold
When she got sunny
It began to melt
But she ended up turning my heart into ice
Because her breath I mean
The wind was still cold
Causing the melting to over froze
As she got hotter
My iced out heart liquified
And it's liquid flowed
On to the street cracks in the concrete
Land of Bed-Stuy
Hoping something will grow from it
Like Tupac's Rose did in the concrete
Hoping it will nurture
A community of lost children
With broken dreams
Broken home
To have something to hope for
Cause I gave up my heart just for them
To the rays of the sun hoping it products will be much more than a rainbow
Like those after sun showers
Leaving me heartless
Until it snows again
And the Icy Cold nurturing heart will be rebirth
Product of Mother Earth